taking the steps towards my future

So today I attended a seminar in a collective group that talked about inauthenticity. I was very moved by the speaker because i related to the topic he addressed. I was inauthentic towards how i treated my loved ones by covering up my addiction. For the first time i stood in front of a crowd of strangers and told them my problem. Alot of the crowd i addressed was disgusted in what I said. At first, I felt shameful and embarressed but then i realized its not them im proving myself to it is for myself. The speaker told me I had alot of courage to say that in front of a crowd of around 150 strangers and I felt empowered afterwards. I cant wait to attend the next seminar even if i get the looks by people i did today. For I know im doing something for myself to better myself, Not to be judged by other people.