Relapsed again!
Hi,
I relapsed again. Major binging. My own fault really as I did little to stop it and mentally shut myself out of the world while having time off instead of walking away and clearing my head. I since explained the situation to my Counselor who noticed a big difference in my behavior from when I was looking at the porn to when after. It was annoying, like I was compelled to download and not release. It ended up interfering with my routine that I stopped it and climaxed as normal without porn thoughts so it was a waste of time. I have a new strategy to try next however I can only hope I have learned from that waste. Given the novelty and pics/vids been released every day it would require big motivation to let it go for good...
I guess that's what I really have to do. Let go from it....
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it's a trap and it's got you
it's a trap and it's got you at the moment.
do you keep porn files saved on your computer? like videos and pictures in a folder on the hard drive?
how about other materials, like magazines and dvds?
you see i deleted all files from my hard drive and threw away any dvd's i had, it certainly helps, and there is a great feeling of relief when chucking this rubbish in the bin, but that's short lived i suppose.
it helps me anyway to not have any of this junk squirreled away somewhere.
whenever i have slipped up it's always with free porn movies from the usual suspects (i don't need to name the websites, you obviously know them!)
but i haven't slipped up yet this year, that's 22 days. although i've been sorely tempted. it's a real battle for sure
Hi Neale, Thanks for the
Hi Neale,
Thanks for the reply and well done on being porn free so far this year. A fresh start. It’s a trap all right. I watched the lovers guide DVD recently and they made it clear that the need for sex is as strong as breathing and eating so it certainly makes sense why it’s so powerful. I kept my downloaded files all on an external hard drive on an older PC all since wiped and formatted. I used to have magazines/ DVD’s however since the Internet I never needed them. Yes I cannot remember the amount of times I chucked them all away including the history etc and started again. I have a feeling this time will be different as I have good support now. Torrent sites have been a trigger in the past. Yep I know the sites for sure ;)! Talk to you and thanks for the support.
Making Progress again
I just wanted to say I'm making progress again. It's been over two weeks I think since I looked or really thought of porn. A few images crossed my mind but that's it. My job has changed too so I've less idle time to look at it which is good. Other then that I decided with my Counsellor to hold my drive as energy if you think of it that way and neither get rid of it through Porn or Masturbation. To think of it as my life force. I did feel like a masturbation session yesterday though! The most striking thing is I go to bed earlier and can't believe how late I was staying up. I literally want to control myself now and start to make the best use of the time that I have and hopefully start to deal with Love! Porn pushes love out the door from what I can see or makes you avoid it. I also heard a discussion on porn via Radio today so it's on the rise.
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