Watching hardcore porn strips me of my dignity - W's story

I was first exposed to porn when I was in middle school, but only through the medium of erotica, certainly not any hardcore pornography. Like most, this introduction eventually led to the discovery of hardcore pornography in high school. I am a 19 year old college student now and I do watch porn regularly.

At first I was turned off by anything that deviated from old-fashioned sex. Any sign of roughness, any sign that the performers involved were not perfectly loving made me cringe and exit the browser. I have always been a sensitive guy, but over time I began to occasionally watch more hardcore scenes including anal sex, group sex, etc. (still nothing too off centre though). I do recognize that it would be terribly sad if this continued and I slowly became more desensitized. It's not fair to my loved ones especially my girlfriend...

Reading the stories of others has been inspirational and I promise to give up pornography. Even though it's not an addiction, it has begun to strip me of a dignity already and I promise to stop it before it gets worse.

Thank you W for sharing this honest insight, and I think you've made a very profound observation.

We don't need to be hooked for hours every day in order to notice that we are becoming desensitised. The internet delivers a mind-boggling variety of porn, and the temptation to seek out stronger stuff can be hard to resist. It's that heady mixture of curiosity and revulsion that keeps us clicking, even when it's grossing us out.

So when we find ourselves getting aroused by offensive scenes, it creates nagging inner conflict. We don't want to associate ourselves with the people who made this stuff, or the audience they made it for, but here we are getting off to it. Something has to give, and quitting watching is the best outcome.

I hope you find this blog helpful, and wish you every success!